Lately, I’ve been feeling sad and melancholy. I want to go home and be with my friends. I want to go back to work at the zoo and be with everyone there. I was so excited about moving out here, but now that I’ve been here a while, I feel as though I don’t really belong. I miss familiarity and knowing what to expect. I thought I’d be able to handle this, and for the most part I have, but I for some reason just feel really disappointed…
I thought there would be more and I’d be able to get along with everyone and everything quickly and easily. I don’t really know if I’ve made any friends or not. I think I have, but it’s not like I’m going out and spending time with them or anything of the sort. I feel lonely and boring and just all around uninteresting. I wish there were things to do here, too. If you ever come out to visit the Farmington/Aztec area, don’t expect much of anything.
I really want to go to school. I’ve decided that I will major in archeology and have minors in anthropology and geography since they are incredibly fascinating to me. I believe that once I get started there, everything will turn out for the better and I’ll be ok. It’s pretty much too late to sign up for the spring semester, but I can sign up for the fall. I need to talk to a counselor to figure out what exactly I need to do to get started.
Things will get better I’m sure. I just need to be a little more patient.
As someone who happens to also be away from a familiar environment, let me tell you to at least be thankful that you can still communicate in English!
ReplyDeleteJust kidding! I can assure you that as depressed and melancholy as you are now, things will definitely get better! Is there anything especially cool about the area you've relocated to? Any people around you that you've really wanted to get to know but haven't had the chance? Is there anything that you can do there that you just couldn't do at home? Take advantage of these things and embrace them when you think of how homesick you are. Soon, you'll have a new home and a new familiar environment that you are comfortable in, and when you return to Tennessee, you'll have all of that nostalgic familiarity to make you feel all warm and fuzzy!
Here's hoping things get better for you dear, chin up! If all else fails and things just turn out awful, just remember that you do have a home and friends you can turn to to cheer you up! Miss you!